Well Its 3.20am, Christmas morning, the family are asleep and I am sat here moulting feathers from my angel costume all over the sofa!! Santa has already been as there is a stack of pressies under the tree :) Well although my halo has slipped slightly I have been a good girl for most of the year!
Christmas day tomorrow, well it is actually Christmas day now but when I eventually go to bed then get up about 3 hours later the day will be here.
Potatoes are peeled, sprouts sorted (pre-packed and 4 minutes in the microwave,,ssh don't tell) Meat is defrosting, all I need to do is eat it.
I am feeling pretty positive about tomorrow. My body is changing shape and I can tell the difference. I almost need to undo the zip before I pull my jeans down, my boobs are slowly reappearing and the tell tale hip bones are surrounding themselves with a little padding.
How do I feel about this? Not too bad...a little scared sometimes but on the whole a lot more accepting of how I look and how I feel about my body image. How I look does not determine the person I am, or how others will see me. I am looking forward to this Christmas, spending it with friends who do not judge, who know me for the real person that I am and who are there ready to support me or help when I may struggle. To all of you I say thank you, I couldn't do it on my own.
A very merry Christmas to all of you, I wish you all happiness and inner peace. It is a difficult time of the year and hope you can stay strong. xx