The biggest problem with medication for Depression is they generally make you feel like shit, and I have been seriously feeling like shit!
A chemical hangover is not nice. After 10 hours sleep I should be waking up refreshed not wanting to hide my head under the pillow, wrap myself in the duvet and go into a lock down for the rest of the day..... or weekend.
I think at the moment its a bit of a balancing act, trying to get the timings right so as not to disrupt my day.
I'm functioning OK at work but really having to challenge myself with lots of self-talk. I put all my effort into focusing on my work and being the best I can, by the time I get home I really can't be arsed anymore. I am starting to get the,'whats wrong,' 'you don't seem yourself,' 'you look like you've lost weight' statements. I have learnt to smile, brush off the comments sand carry on with my day.
Why do we find it so damn hard to talk about Mental Health?? Maybe I'm scared of my colleagues responses,If I had the flu I wouldn't think twice.
February 6th is Time To Talk about Mental Health Day, maybe then we can start a change. Just maybe I will start a conversation.