Wobbly.

Today I am am feeling a bit wobbly, no comments please on alcohol consumption!
In fact have been feeling a little 'wobbly' for a few weeks.
I try to keep my postings as light hearted as possible so I will endeavour to do the same today.
Things had been going pretty good, eating plan on form, weight gaining steady, mood pretty uplifting and going back to work all positive.
So what went wrong?  Me!!! No one else, just little ole me.
The increase in weight has been an absolute bitch and that has been dragging me down. It does nothing for my self-esteem and I know the only person that can deal with this is me.  I need to be able to accept the way my body is changing, rationalise over my thoughts and my fears.....stamp down hard on this wobbly!!
It is so hard to admit this to those close to me, I have been so positive, some say an inspiration to others and I feel that I am letting them down as well as myself.  Its easy to accept what is happening, go with the flow, become complacent and just ignore it as if its not happening. 
  I went to support group last night with a friend.  It was great to have someone with me, to feel they were there for me, being a support, but it was also difficult.
It is easy to forget that my actions and behaviour can have an effect on those I love, and to listen to someone  tell me how helpless they feel, hurts.  I want to say just being there helps.   Knowing that I have the support of my family and friends is a comfort.  You don't need to do anything, to say anything, just being there is enough.
I will get over the 'wobbly;.  I expected set backs, and they can only make me a stronger person.
Thank you for listening....I will be back x