I had never had much confidence, particularly around new people or situations, had horrendous low self esteem and self image all of which I think contributed to issues with depression and eating disorders throughout my adult life. I am so thankful that I no longer feel this way.
I cannot emphasise how important that we recognise and validate our emotions and feelings. I know that I have used my eating disorder in the past to feel numb, to stop myself from feeling the hurt of betrayal, the pain of bereavement, the loss of friendship. I didn't want to accept that what I was feeling was real, but all that happened was it cut deeper into me, making me more ill, more depressed and sending me into a spiral of behaviours that were destroying my life.
I came across a diary that I had written in 2010 and it is painful to read. I wasn't dealing with the emotions I was feeling in a positive way, I wasn't nurturing my body or my mind.
It has only been since completing the challenges over the past few months that I realised I was still trying to deal with some things I was feeling. This time I approached them head on and told someone. It helped, just to write it down and press 'send,' I'm so glad I did.
|Discourage Fat talk amongst yourself and your friends.|
|I ditched the bathroom scales.|
|Take responsibility and act on it.|
Forgive yourself and others before it eats away at you.